by Carolyn R. Russell
“What should I call you?” I asked. “Because if you give me no guidance, I’ll be forced to perpetrate some awful pun, like Sore or RuleOf. Or maybe Opposable.”
My thumb laughed and said to call it Claudia. She, her, hers, it added snidely, like it was mocking my worldview.
It spoke from inside my breast pocket, mind you, not my hand. My hand now sported a Frankensteinian scar where the digit had lived before I cut it off. That was right after I learned it had become an independent agent. Its ultimate aims I had yet to figure out, other than its desire to poison my wife.
I’m sure Claudia would disagree. She’d say she was so intent on mastering the art of Creole cooking that she forgot to check labels for shellfish allergens, or something like that. But Claudia’s been proven a highly unreliable narrator of our shared history. I don’t even ask her questions anymore, except for when I’m bored and in the mood for one of her tortured explanations. She’s very creative, I’ll give her that.
Before I realized Claudia’s reach and power, I would find strange bits and pieces of metal and string arranged in little piles in odd corners of our house. Once, a tidy cluster of anonymous keys pressed into the end of a bread loaf, discovered when I went to slice it. At first, I thought it was one of the kids, but when I brought it up, they looked at me like I was nuts before squinting their eyes at me with the effort, I think, of not rolling them. My wife had been equally unhelpful. Our Border Collie, Cleveland, was sympathetic, but even he looked at me a little funny before he left the room.
It would be several months before I discovered my thumb’s autonomy, that it could manage small tasks literally behind my back. And more. One time, I got out of bed in the middle of the night to find I was already up and awake and drawing some sort of map.
The amputation had only sharpened her opaque ambitions. More and more, I felt my own ego dissolving in the wake of Claudia’s furtive operations.
Why, you might wonder, would I not just throw Claudia into the fireplace or over a cliff? Because I couldn’t. Literally could not. She had succeeded in colonizing parts of my body, including the frontal lobe of my brain. She knew my thoughts. And severance had not limited her influence over my every conscious moment, nor dampened her enthusiasm for gaining whatever it was she wanted.
It was on an unseasonably cold day in November when Claudia insisted I take her to the hardware store. I didn’t even bother to inquire as to why, just placed her in her customary perch inside my breast pocket and asked if Cleveland might join us.
The three of us were at the threshold of the store when I tripped over Cleveland’s leash and nearly fell. As I righted myself I glimpsed Claudia rolling on the ground. Before I could move, Cleveland had pounced on my thumb and was chewing, then swallowing.
It took a moment for me to grasp what had happened. But when Cleveland and I entered the store, I felt a lightness of heart that was near intoxicating. I found the pet supply section and went crazy, buying Cleveland expensive novelty snacks and fancy toys to gnaw on. And I couldn’t stop telling him what a good dog he was.
After a few days, my family started to comment on my improved disposition. I began to savor my life again. I began to have fun again. It was in this spirit that at dinner one evening I suggested we all get away during the kids’ upcoming Thanksgiving break. Go someplace sunny and warm. It was decided, and as I cleared the table, my wife and kids got on their laptops to research where we might travel.
Cleveland followed me into the kitchen. As I scraped plates into the garbage, he stood at attention, waiting.
“I know what you want, boy,” I told him. I’ve got some leftover spaghetti with your name on it.”
“That would be fine,” he said. “But you can forget about that fucking kennel you have in mind. I’m coming with y’all.”
I turned toward Cleveland. Big brown eyes gleaming, he wagged his tail and opened his jaws wide. I dropped the spaghetti into his mouth and watched the red sauce drip down his chin.
“More,” said my dog.
Bio:
A Pushcart Prize, Best Micro Fictions, Best of the Net, and Best Small Fictions nominee, Carolyn R. Russell’s essays, poetry, and short stories have been featured in numerous publications. She has also authored four books, including a multi-genre flash collection called “Death and Other Survival Strategies” (Vine Leaves Press, 2023).